I found out today a dear friend had a stroke earlier this month. One of those friends you share great history with but the present has led you to drift apart. You don't email or call. You both have lives going in different directions. Milestone events happening but they are so dissimilar your paths don't cross.
All I can think about now is how difficult this time must be. And how I can't call her. I can't talk to her right now. She's having difficulty remembering and speaking and really the last thing she needs is to try to remember her flaky friend who she hasn't seen in 2 years (or more).
So today I just think about her. A lot. And selfishly I think about me. And my boys. And all of the what ifs. And the whys. And the what do I need to do's.
Too many people this year, too close, telling me to make some changes. I think it is time.
I'll post the winner of the class pass tomorrow morning. Today I just needed to think.